Imagination. A Inner Voice.

On Friday night in winter, I was on the rooftop with my coffee. Breezing cold wind, touching my body. Reminding me of something. Is this the second time am I experiencing this same thing? same feeling? Am I living this movement again? is this happened to me in past? but how? I just moved to this house and this is my first time sitting on a rooftop... So how Can I know about this experience? where did I live this? No, I didn't. is it from my past life memories? How can be this possible? is it Deja vu? it must be. I didn't have this experience before. I had many thoughts and many questions about it. How can I find the answer to it.?

Deja vu? uhh. isn't Deja vu mean already dreamed? But there are many dreams I want to live. But without Confusion about what I want? then I want to live that moment with you, that I already dreamed of, why can't I? I deserve that and YES I will decide, what I want and what Not.

I didn't ask for anything huge. I just wished for the things, That my heart craved for, for a moment where a place, where I can belong to. for a heart where I can rest into. for a feeling where I can't feel tired. for a shadow where I can sleep in peace. where can I get Deja vu? I know this blog changes the narrative it is just inner voice.

The bond where I never feel lonely, with the world where everything with Nothing to gain, Nothing to lose. The world where I can explore myself. A city with happiness and without sadness. A place where happiness Never ends and sadness Never starts where I can't be exhausted, Where there is no pain. Not like the sand, How much I tried to tighten my wrist, nothing will be lost. Where can I get deja vu?

The Univers where I can roam around, where I don't have any responsibility. Where no one has any expectations from me. It is like doing whatever I like. To do the things that make me happy. So, I don't have to find what makes me happy, and I don't have to find, What I want In my life? can't it just be like in a video game where there is no limit to Imagination? Everything is true and nothing is fake. where can I get that deja vu?

I should shatter my reality because I live in Universe where Nothing is as I wanted. I can only hope for it and hope for it... We all live in our imaginary world, and we hope one day, One day it will become reality for Us. We know this is a hopeless and selfish expectation to have But we still want it, because in our minds and even in reality we deserve to be happy. We want to be happy without any worries in mind. We are human we are greedy to satisfy ourselves, and we seek the thing that makes us happy. If We didn't find anything that make us happy. We create illusions in our imagination and ask a question ourselves. where can I get that deja vu?

As A human we can only hope.